♥ Saturday, May 09, 2009♥

jus when i get that chance to spend some time with you,
your frens invade
its not jealousy,
probably jus the inability to comprehend the priority you have for me and them.
i feel second,
to them.

i feel like i've put in my ALL to make things work, even if it means jus purely giving in becuz i'm so sick of arguing.
but at the end of the day, its jus a "i don like u to give in when u dont agree" from you.
so what now?
trying to get my point across results in us arguing,
holding my tongue back to prevent us from arguing seeems the wrong move too.

recovering from hurt thru our tele conversation last nite.
telling me that you see many many problems in the future when our career develops.
my qn to u now, is "why cling on to something that you think may not last? "
and your answer was "i wan to try"


what if i dont want to?
it shldnt feel tiring in a rship,
but i do.

foregoing the rship with you may just equate to me wanting to remain alone for the next few years in my life.

maybe its time?

i like you for being you,
your drive, your confidence, your humour, your capabilities,
but
i hate you for being you, too.
your temper, your MCPness,
but i figured that these traits go hand in hand.

sigh.

letting go wouldnt make me happy,
clinging on wouldnt make me happier too.

what shld i do?

Princ'Ess♥