♥ Sunday, February 06, 2011♥

its 2011. this year marks a brand new chapter of my life. he left and i swear nthing will make me go back to this fcked up person, ever. Not worth any of my time & effort. I thank him tho, to make me realise that guys like him will never, ever ever change. Only that i took 4 years to realise this. Asked if i regretted patching up? not really. Cuz if i didnt, the what-ifs will always come to mind. Now that the what-ifs are answered, i move on with no regrets whatsoever.

have i moved on? that will really depend on how u define moving on. Whats left of him nw is hate and nthg else. I once said I wanted the gd memories t0 stay, but now, i want nthg of it, ever in my mind. I'm really moving on fine. trust me :))

now that this seems like a "look back on 2010 " entry.. i shall continue.

well, ith the love life being so fcked up, i'm sure there's smthg i can put a smile on, and that will be in my career.

Acheived silver, but lacked 3K to my 50K fyc target.
Annual income achieved, athens achieved. 2 recruits as of now achieved.

When asked to do the target setting in Desaru on 10 jan 2011, i sticked a picture of a random Volkswagen comvertible. (not that i really wanted the EOS, i just couldnt find a BM convertible picture)

27 Jan 2011, i placed a deposit for a BMW 320i convertible in white on red seats. Could have gotten it by CNY if not for the super inefficient banks. A super huge commitment to this, but its what ive really been waiting for. Getting a tad too comfortable w the beetle dusen make me work as hard as i used to. So with this new toy, I better be pulling up my socks.

Achievers destination for 2012: Hawaii. with 40K of FYC ...it shouldnt be a problem when my persona target is 62K for 2011.

This CNY has been quite a good one with me winning bits of $$ at mahjong and in between.

Loss of voice gonna slow down my pace at work..but i'll b bck.

2011 will be a good one for me, i'm sure.

Princ'Ess♥

♥ Thursday, November 11, 2010♥

christmas is in a mths plus time! how time flies.

did i mention that i love christmas? :))))) really really love the season..

B is bck ta spend my bday with me once again.. i hope he'll be ard for all my birthdays. i love my birthday becuz it falls on christmas, just makes it even more worthwhile :)

i was really upset last christmas, but thankfully my bitch ( not bitches cuz rae wasnt ard!) and pivots were ard to celeb christmas and bday at st james. havent thot of how i'll celeb it this year.. but def with my loved ones ard :)

the last sprint to athens, i think i'm there, but a marginal 38. i wanted 50 rem? will not rest and will continue to fight on! :)

4th anni celeb at universal studios and hard rock hotel :)
universal studios w B on 30/10-31/10 ( our 4th yr anni celeb) . he planned a stay at hard rock hotel too.. way fun! casino in the wee hours at nite robbed me of 400 bucks. u will never win in a casino man. lol

baby's 26th bday.
a surprise at his void deck with awfully choco cake and some random deco from me!
and made him a vdo , ccoupled with a Zara sleeveless knit sweater for cold weathers! :)

we've been thru so much i just hope ethg will last and remain the way they are now.

hives been killing me , stayed home for 5 days becuz of them. jus 1 old folklore remedy frm irene and its gone! cant believe it. dont know what ive been in contact with.

so random , this is a result of pure boredom at home.

back and recharged to work tmr! yay!

Princ'Ess♥

♥ Sunday, August 08, 2010♥

july's been a bad month, really.

the accident, work, and everything else.

suddenly recharged. SILVER is what i really am gg for.

jus need to settle some dust before i can fully focus on my 50K. gg ta phuket for a short, but undeserved trip. Well, its not meant to be a reward trip anyway, but i declare my 100% focus once i land my ass back in singapore.

101 reminders to myself why i'm where i am.

work hard, and i'll have an eventful 24th bday :)

Princ'Ess♥

♥ Sunday, June 27, 2010♥

its mid years.

june's ending in just 2 days, and my pdtion seems to be wayyy off track from my personal target. nobody else to blame but myself.haven been putting in my 101% at work. clearly distracted by lotsa things happening in ma life.

have been adapting pretty well at my aunt's (well, cept the fact that i do have a curfew to keep now since i do not own the keys) the whole moving of house sure isnt fun and will not be smthg i would wanna go thru again.
the aftermath of moving, parents squabbling like crazy is what i do not appreciate in the midst of my very stressed up mind abt wk! then again, its only thru stress that we improve, soooo i shall take it positive.

only half a year more to hit my personal goals (material and income) , pretty determined to hit it tho july will b filled with moving into my new place.pls remind me not to use that as an excuse.

sudden urge to leave spore for a slight while and come back but i guess time's running out. shall make do with the leisure (if i deserve any) here.

"guess who's back? back again..." how very apt.

been seeing you-know-who very regularly and i dont know if its good for me. smtimes i feel like i'm smoking. knowing that smoking's bad, i still do it. knowing that prob seeing you-know-who isnt such a gd idea afterall and i still am. so damn confused. talked to bitches and they gave the green light. i still am so veryyy hesitant. smtimes i think while driving and i tell myself no-go. den i think again and i tell myself no-harm. i'm so effing confused.


falling into a pithole. even bought a BBR grey sweater for him for no apparent reason. i'm soo landing myself into quicksand. totally clueless and confused as to what to do.

i need some directions! helpmesomeone.

" i cant make up my mind mind mind mind mind, pls dont waste my time time time time time..."

Princ'Ess♥

♥ Thursday, April 22, 2010♥

Can someone remind me not to listen to class 95 love songs anymore??

One Last Cry - Brian Mcknight

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry



Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I�ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lieI guess I�m down to my last cryCry......
I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on youI need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry




Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I�ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lieI know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on.....I�m gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my
One last cry




Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I�ve gotta put you outta my mind for the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess I�m downI guess I�m downI guess I�m down...
To my last cry...

Princ'Ess♥

♥ Monday, April 12, 2010♥

Hinder rules.

Without You

I just wanna be alone tonight

I just wanna take a little breather

Cause lately all we do is fight

And every time it cuts me deeper

Cause something’s changed

You’ve been acting so strange

And its taking its toll on me

Its safe to say that

I’m ready to let you leave

Without you,

I live it up a little more everyday

Without you,

I’m seein myself so differently

I didn’t wanna believe it then

But it all worked out in the end

When I watched you walk away

Well I never thought

id say

I’m fine

Without you

Called you up cause’ it’s been long enough

And you said that you were so much better

We have done a lot of growing up

We were never meant to be together

Cause something changed,

you were acting so strange

And it’s taken its toll on me

It’s safe to say that

I’m ready to let you leave

Without you,

I live it up a little more everyday

Without you,

I’m seein myself so differently

I didn’t wanna believe it then

But it all worked out in the end

When I watched you walk away

Well I never thought id sayI’m fine

Without you

Cause something changed,

you were acting so strange

And it’s taken its toll on me

It’s safe to say that

I’m ready to let you leave

Without you,

I live it up a little more everyday

Without you,

I’m seein myself so differently

I didn’t wanna believe it then

But it all worked out in the end

When I watched you walk away

Well I never thought id sayI’m fine,

Without you

Without you

Without you

Without you

I just wanna be alone tonight,

I just wanna take a little breather.

Princ'Ess♥